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candid_mackerel
19 June 2010 @ 01:41 am
dooshiyo
 
 
candid_mackerel
22 January 2010 @ 04:35 am
oh :( i feel sick.
 
 
candid_mackerel
12 June 2009 @ 08:30 pm
sad bunny
 
 
candid_mackerel
03 June 2009 @ 04:21 am
rusted heart like my rusted back. how many rusty nails until i shine?
 
 
candid_mackerel
15 May 2009 @ 01:18 am
xxxHolic is so good >___<
it feels a little eerie, but it's not as scary as detective conan~!
 
 
 
candid_mackerel
28 March 2009 @ 11:41 pm
i can't seem to remember what i use to do when i was alone.
 
 
music: echo/INCUBUS. ok. INCUBUS.
 
 
candid_mackerel
27 March 2009 @ 03:37 am
i feel like there's a blade in my throat.
 
 
candid_mackerel
27 March 2009 @ 12:44 am
im always going have courage
but i just want someone to be my hero

like right now. i wished really hard that you would probably come and get me.
who am i kidding amirite.
i really hate myself when i sound like this.

i want to give up.
 
 
candid_mackerel
20 February 2009 @ 04:14 am
when characters i like are happy
i feel really happy tooooooo

easy to please i guess


sigh <3
 
 
candid_mackerel
16 February 2009 @ 07:57 am
I haven't laughed so much while reading manga before ^___^~

shoujo sport manga~ that's a first!

http://www.onemanga.com/Power/
 
 
mood: amusedamused
 
 
 
candid_mackerel
19 January 2009 @ 09:16 pm
a million thoughts are running through my head.

at the moment, i think i'll act like a big shot even though i might be happy pushing papers in pretty clothes knocking over teacups.

my random babble is at best when im driving and eating alone.
 
 
candid_mackerel
14 January 2009 @ 12:18 am
that this icon isn't mine and i uploaded it to livejournal directly. talk about feeling unsafe.
 
 
candid_mackerel
14 January 2009 @ 12:09 am
I want to move out. I don't feel at home. My things are moved a little everyday. I feel suspicious. I feel unsafe. I want to leave.
 
 
candid_mackerel
07 January 2009 @ 01:54 am
what is worst?

fearing rejection

or being rejected

or being ping ponged from being rejected to accepted?




i can't be afraid of rejection anymore. not by anyone.
SO FUCK YOU. I'LL BE STEPPING WHERE I WANT BITCHES.
 
 
candid_mackerel
03 January 2009 @ 05:00 am
when im alone, i think about grandma a lot.
not much when i'm with others.
but when im alone, i think about grandma.
and i cry.
and i miss her.
 
 
 
candid_mackerel
28 December 2008 @ 02:49 am
is it psychological?
is it physiological?
 
 
mood: crushedcrushed
 
 
candid_mackerel
17 December 2008 @ 09:56 pm
more than love and peace on earth
I want some sexy headphones so I don't need to blast noise to hear it.
me first.
 
 
candid_mackerel
17 December 2008 @ 09:24 pm
to reciprocate my feelings.
 
 
candid_mackerel
14 December 2008 @ 02:53 am
thank you for noticing my work when no one else will.



i told my mom that i watered the garden today. she scoffed at me.
but the man across the street told me "good job." i wish i gave him something more than a smile.
 
 
mood: grumpyhopeless
 
 
candid_mackerel
07 December 2008 @ 08:29 am
i can't find my wallet. ahhh.
>_< well it's been missing 3 days so it's safe to say that it hasn't been found by someone else o_o
 
 
 
candid_mackerel
06 December 2008 @ 12:47 pm
Uh yeah okay.


Yesterday I had a dream about Hibari Kyoya from Reborn.
YES this is the first time I had a dream with a fictional character =.= wthwthwth?
 
 
candid_mackerel
30 November 2008 @ 10:24 pm
if one of your classmates said "I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! YOU FUCKING STINK JAMENSON!"
cause that is exactly what I said. To tell truth, I'm afraid that he might find his post since he's a internet troll (and an RL troll). he's smelled really sour. I had to experience it twice.

once during a still life and the only good seat left was next to him T_T
and the other time when the room was practically empty since it was the day before tkxgiving break. I sit near the sink so I can change water easily (was painting). Lo'&behold! he decides to sit next to me. what. the fuck. 20 empty seats and he scurries his lard ass next to me. srsly, wtf. he is so annoying that I think I'm going to bring duct tape tomorrow just to shut him the fuck up.
 
 
candid_mackerel
30 November 2008 @ 05:02 am
it was last week when I was cleaning out a can of stale crackers so I could use the tin to mix some acrylic.
I was thinking that I was really horrible for rubbing away the things that were touched and the things that were liked.



I'm not stable.
 
 
candid_mackerel
30 November 2008 @ 04:27 am
I enjoy our nights with your fake cigarettes.
 
 
mood: happyhappy
 
 
candid_mackerel
28 November 2008 @ 03:07 pm
it's insane that i'm excited about driving to the legion of honor cuz i want to hear ame ato on my ipodddd~! hahah.
 
 
 
candid_mackerel
26 November 2008 @ 09:49 pm
lol squalo. VRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIII
cutie cutie cutie
 
 
candid_mackerel
26 November 2008 @ 02:17 am
sunshine :)
meltmeltmelt
 
 
candid_mackerel
10 November 2008 @ 08:24 pm
When she was still in the hospital, Grandma really wanted to go on one. I wish we all had gone.

on my way home from japan, there was a really breathtaking scenery above the clouds. where is heaven?
 
 
mood: melancholymelancholy
 
 
candid_mackerel
09 November 2008 @ 10:22 pm
I can care less about your ass. BB.


Zzz gonna open a coconut now. It's like jello.
 
 
mood: apatheticapathetic
 
 
candid_mackerel
08 November 2008 @ 11:12 pm
HOLY CRAP

SHOCKSHOCKSHOCKSHOCKSHOCKSHOCKSHOCKSHOCKSHOCKSHOCK
 
 
 
candid_mackerel
02 November 2008 @ 11:20 pm
i grew up pretty much like a rich brat (despite being in a lower middle class family).

neither my mom nor dad paid attention to me while i was growing up and they're forcing me to converse with them...NOW? wait a minute. i have to keep my mouth shut at the dinner table? what was the reason for me to be around? why should i come home? and i'm the one that needs to sympathize with them because they couldn't stop working to talk to their kids a few minutes a day.

there hasn't been a time in my life where i haven't enjoyed my alone time. gtfo of it.
i've had eczema for 10 years now. 10 YEARS and they're only now concerned about it~! do me a favor and stop gawking at my skin. do me a favor and stop giving suggestions. do yourself a favor and listen to ME when i say that i don't want to take some crack pot medicine because i know it's a scam~!! 10 years. 10 FUCKING years.

you're 22 fucking years too late if you want to baby me. you're 10 years too late if you want change me.


i dont know what i'm saying.
i miss grandma a lot.
 
 
candid_mackerel
01 November 2008 @ 11:35 pm
My dad built this house to keep the family together. Though since we've come here, the family's done nothing but fall apart. Each room is becoming emptier as we rekindle the space and love lost. Space, life and love lost. Life and love lost.


I was using some a super face mask earlier and now my eye is super irritated and is kinddd of burning. I've been flushing it out for a while and only stopped a few minutes ago. There is a, perhaps, insignificant stinging leftover now but I should be fine by tomorrow. I hope D:

I really like when heavy rain wakes me up. It's really comforting. I like rain. I need me some rain boots~!
 
 
location: in my room
mood: coldcold
 
 
candid_mackerel
01 November 2008 @ 01:30 pm
TT____TT I wonder where all the little trick or treaters are? Probably trick or treating in a seemingly safe, rich neighborhood .___. sighhhhhhhhh.
 
 
candid_mackerel
29 October 2008 @ 02:40 pm
"everything I knew about beauty was a lie"

that is sooo how I felt when I took figure drawing. :3
 
 
candid_mackerel
13 October 2008 @ 01:45 pm
I really like the glass containers t.v. show cooks use in their kitchen for baking powder an whatnot. Ufufufu~ one day I'll have an oven and a kitchen of my own *^____^*~~
 
 
mood: happyhappy
 
 
 
candid_mackerel
13 October 2008 @ 04:28 am
i can't believe it's already monday T_T someone shoot me pls.
i just fixed my sleeping schedule and i fucked it up already dangggggggg.
it's just too scary to sleep at night.
the nocturnal knows what up.


ignore the no-banner if you're looking at my journallllllll. working on it.
 
 
mood: awakeawake